After years of struggling in the relationship I always had a nagging voice that told me there was something very wrong going on. As the time went on, I began to feel completely broken: spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I was so full of shame and anger at myself, not only for allowing this relationship to go on for so long and for allowing a man to treat me this way but for feeling like I had disappointed my family and again have them wonder what was wrong with me for not being able to stay in a relationship. Then one day I made the decision that I would never go through anything like that EVER again. I would never feel desperate, shameful, guilty, not good enough, weak, or miserable in my life.
As my journey of self-discovery continued, I was always searching for my purpose and my passion. I knew I had to focus my attention on myself. I had to grieve the relationship that I had so wanted and also grieve for the life I didn’t get. This was the beginning of my journey to heal. I went to the gym, I found amazing allies, found a mentor, and read great self help books. I healed past relationships, worked on understanding myself, and came to understand how my experiences had affected me. I healed my wounds and grew stronger, gained confidence and self esteem. I was at peace with myself and was truly happy with the woman I had become.